About Money

Last nite, Mr H told me that we are going to Malacca again this coming weekend because of another cousin of him is getting married. I was quiet because I was coughing and also suddenly feeling all drained out. But I was thinking about the fund on going to Malacca. Cukup ke tak duit? Rasa cam tak cukup. Oh well, the energy is not there for me to argue on that matter.

I tried to get some sleeps as I was so very tired. But couldn't. So until I reached home, I took my bath, pray and get ready to bring my youngest daughter to clinic for her compulsory immunization. Which supposedly done 2 months back! Sorry doc... My daughter keep on having fever and running nose. So last night was the best.

Before we went to the clinic, Mr H wanted to have dinner first because he hasn't eaten anything since breakfast. He said nobody at the showroom. I bought him a piece of cake when he came to pick me up. SO while waiting for the food to be served, he told my mom that we are going to Malacca on Saturday and back to KL on Sunday (we normally bring my mom & my grandma along). But my mom straight away told him she is not going as she has a dentist appointment on Sunday. So my mom brought up the subject why still going to Malacca when we are kinda short of fund (my mom always know we are in short). He told my mom that he'll find it. So I told him that I don't have any extra to support him. And I dun wanna use my cards. I was being harsh I guess so he was angry. And he told me to go to clinic by myself. To tell you the truth, being a stubborn girl since small, I want really to do that. But since I get married, that is impossible without having another row. So I just kept quiet, make my baby ready and waited Mr H finished watching the news and we go. So all the way to and back from clinic, we were both quiet. I know I should have say sorry but he needs to know I really dun wanna use my cards. I have just settled it and promise myself I dun wanna use it unless have to. Itu pun dah amounting again to RM5k. Oh my...

On our way to office this morning as well, we were not talking. I know it's bad. But I just dunno wat to say anymore. Last month I have extra because of my accrued increment. But we have spent it to the trip to Malacca as well.

Well, I guess I leave it be whatever it gonna be...

Mr H, I am sorry for being harsh but I need to express my thoughts as well.